<p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 28.5pt;"><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"><font face="Times New Roman"> </font></span></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Times New Roman';">一半醒来</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"><font face="Times New Roman"> </font></span></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-hansi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-ascii-font-family: 'Times New Roman';">一半睡去</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc;"><p></p></span></p><p></p><p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 28.5pt;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman";">好象会有这样一种状态——一半醒来,一半睡去。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc;"><p></p></span></p><p></p><p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 28.5pt;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman";">很长一段时间来,一直喜欢安静地坐在电脑面前,没有人打扰。只看着那些虚幻飘渺的色彩在我眼前飘过。我知道,什么都是假的,假的,但心情却是真的。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc;"><p></p></span></p><p></p><p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 28.5pt;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman";">不知不觉的,博客已经比较充实了,留言也总是洋溢着温暖的味道。每次小心翼翼地数着自己的文字,看着那些绚丽的图片,听着朋友们的问候和诉说,心里感觉很塌实,却又总是惘然。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc;"><p></p></span></p><p></p><p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 28.5pt;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman";">想着那些心情曾以怎样的姿态流出我的指间,我,不能不哭。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc;"><p></p></span></p><p></p><p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 28.5pt;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman";">时常想这样问自己:“那些心情,是我自己么?”然后看着看着就有些心酸:当经历为真的时候,喜欢遮掩起心中那一分不舍的情感;当情节虚幻的时候,却反而喜欢把自己彻头彻尾地埋进纠缠中。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc;"><p></p></span></p><p></p><p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 28.5pt;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman";">太远的日子,真的没有什么可说,少不经事的岁月,在记忆里幸福成一片水白,毫无特色与特别。开心的日子,我已记不清了,我不知道从什么时候开始,当我觉得可以开心地接受那些我用自己心血换来的成果时,嫉妒的眼光便随之而来。很多很多值得我开心的事本可以拉出来见见阳光,但又势必牵扯出许许多多血色的狰狞。是的,我只是个孩子,我不可以不开心,开心是孩子的权利。于是,我松松紧紧地遮掩着所有的梦境与现实,在其中亦真亦幻地徐走,心也就随之深深浅浅地敏感、、、、、、</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc;"><p></p></span></p><p></p><p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 28.5pt;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman";">许久之后,我才知道,一堵墙的墙外是另一堵墙的墙内。人终究跨不出自己积累起来的束缚。很多人和事不被自己改变就定会改变自己。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc;"><p></p></span></p><p></p><p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 28.5pt;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman";">我早已学会了妥协和退让,有原则的,无原则,半原则的、、、、、、从一个地方结束,在另一个地方开始,无休无止地寻找与丢弃,直到忘记了自己要的是什么。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc;"><p></p></span></p><p></p><p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 28.5pt;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman";">有人这么唱着:</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc;"><p></p></span></p><p></p><p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 28.5pt;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman";">我只有两天,我从未把握,一天用来出生,一天用来死亡;</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc;"><p></p></span></p><p></p><p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 28.5pt;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman";">我只有两天,我从未把握,一天用来希望,一天用来绝望;</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc;"><p></p></span></p><p></p><p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 28.5pt;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman";">我只有两天,我从未把握,一天用来路过,另一天还是路过。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc;"><p></p></span></p><p></p><p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 28.5pt;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman";">我想飞还是飞不起来,我想飞还是飞不起来。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc;"><p></p></span></p><p></p><p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 28.5pt;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman";">。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc;"><p></p></span></p><p></p><p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 28.5pt;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman";">懒懒地想着什么,我已不知道了,但天就黑了,人就累了。爬上床,竟然睡不着,即使我什么也看不到。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc;"><p></p></span></p><p></p><p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 28pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman";">我迷茫在虚拟的世界里,我喜欢这种感觉,因为它与现实太遥远,然而我依然遇不见哪怕是一场救赎。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc;"><p></p></span></p><p></p><p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 28.5pt;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman";">找一个人陪,是一件很容易的事,但是想找个人懂你却向来奢侈。刘若英在在看不见的地方唱歌:“我想我会一辈子孤单,就一辈子这么孤单、、、、、、”寂寞的时候可以一个人对着电脑发呆,任性的时候也可以藏在</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc;"><font face="Times New Roman">OICQ</font></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman";">的背后给陌生人一个意外。不必磨合,不必迁就,不必争吵。安安静静地数着自己的不算快乐的快乐,不也很好?</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc;"><p></p></span></p><p></p><p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 28.5pt;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman";">尾声:醒来的时候,我突然发现,原来我是一半醒来,一半睡去。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc;"><p></p></span></p><p></p><p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 28.5pt;"><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc;"><p><font face="Times New Roman"> </font></p></span></p><p><font face="Times New Roman"> </font></p><p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0cm 0cm 0pt; TEXT-INDENT: 28.5pt;"><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #ff99cc;"><p><font face="Times New Roman"> </font></p></span></p><p><font face="Times New Roman"> </font></p><p></p>
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